Thursday, December 11, 2008
Busy, Busy, Busy
So these last few days have been insanely busy. I usually stay pretty busy, but the last few days have been insane. I thought that by going to the temple to have some time to sit and think would be a great opportunity, but even in the temple I was rushed through confirmations and baptisms so fast, we were done in like 10 minutes. Things still haven't slowed yet, and I find myself preparing a talk for Sunday that just isn't coming together. My brain is fried (hence this blog that I really don't have the time to write) but yet I don't have time to spend much more time on it. So, something happened today that made me realize that sometimes busy is good. So I had 2 free hours today between clients so I decided to do some much needed Christmas shopping. I entered a store and ran into a friend who was just leaving to go to lunch with his mom. It hit me like a ton of bricks as I watched them walk out and I couldn't help but be a little envious and sad. At times I feel like I have moved on and that I have dealt appropriately with the death of my mom, but then there are days when I just miss her so bad that my heart literally hurts. So today when it hit me, I could have stopped and wallowed in my own self-pity, but today I just didn't have the time, and I moved on and was able to engage my mind elsewhere. I agree that staying busy, and engaging yourself in activities can be a great coping skill, and evidently was the one the Lord chose for me today.