It was never easy growing up with parents and an older sister who loved and excelled at cooking. As reputations became established my sister was the culinary genius and I was the one who couldn't boil water. When I did attempt I was teased mercilessly(all in good fun of course) and was never able to develop any kind of confidence in my cooking abilities. For a mutual activity all the girls were asked to make a soup for a dinner. Mine wasn't even touched. I was crushed and vowed I would never cook for anyone ever again. This vow was kept for 7 years, until my calling forced me to make a cheesecake for a Relief Society dinner. Agonizing and with limited time on my hands and a date the night of the party I stayed up the night before making the cheesecakes. I had my sister take them to the party. Nobody touched them. I was crushed once again.
However, I feel like the time has come and the time is now, that I must start developing my cooking confidence. The weird thing is is that I don't think I'm a bad cook at all. Everything I have attempted has come out really good. I just won't cook for others. If there is any chance of them not liking it, I know it will crush my confidence for years to come. So I have to be very careful with who will benefit from my mad cooking skills. But the time has come that I need to start cooking for myself more, and developing my cooking confidence.