It was never easy growing up with parents and an older sister who loved and excelled at cooking. As reputations became established my sister was the culinary genius and I was the one who couldn't boil water. When I did attempt I was teased mercilessly(all in good fun of course) and was never able to develop any kind of confidence in my cooking abilities. For a mutual activity all the girls were asked to make a soup for a dinner. Mine wasn't even touched. I was crushed and vowed I would never cook for anyone ever again. This vow was kept for 7 years, until my calling forced me to make a cheesecake for a Relief Society dinner. Agonizing and with limited time on my hands and a date the night of the party I stayed up the night before making the cheesecakes. I had my sister take them to the party. Nobody touched them. I was crushed once again.
However, I feel like the time has come and the time is now, that I must start developing my cooking confidence. The weird thing is is that I don't think I'm a bad cook at all. Everything I have attempted has come out really good. I just won't cook for others. If there is any chance of them not liking it, I know it will crush my confidence for years to come. So I have to be very careful with who will benefit from my mad cooking skills. But the time has come that I need to start cooking for myself more, and developing my cooking confidence.
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Sad day! I made some brookies (brownie/cookies) on Friday to take to a game night at Jeanna's place, and hardly anybody ate any of those, and you know what? I was a little crushed myself...
Humbug.
Are you going to come to the little Cuenca reunion? I hope so.
I know the feeling. My two older sisters were in the gifted and talented program at school...but not me. It stunted me for a long time. I did not feel like I was smart. They were the smart ones and I was the dumb ones.
Let it be known for the record that just because someone is good at something it doesn't mean that we are not good...or that we have to be as good as them to be considered good. We are equally good in our own way. So cook it up Katy! Even Ukdorf likes greasy eggs and burned toast!
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